Don't give up! I mean it... you can do it!
Updated: Jun 18, 2022
I know that I am not the only one that needs to hear this right now. So, if you're one of them... hear me now. Don't quit. Don't give up. Stay with me.
So - how is 2022 going for you? I know... you're probably saying - Christine... it's literally only been 22 days.
<Sigh> I know... and it's already been rough. This year has GOT to get better!!
Let me explain how my 2022 is going so far:
Let's see... I got sick on 1-1-2022 and was sick until 1-3-2022 with heavy migraines, and a head cold (not COVID).
Went to work on 1-4-2022, only to wake up on 1-5-2022 sick again. And now - with the addition of severe panic attacks.
Man I pray that you are someone that has never experienced an actual panic attack. So, if you are one of the lucky ones that has never experienced one... let me share a little bit about them.
This image and some of the information that I will be sharing comes from:
I like this website because it explains it in plain English. It tells you that panic attacks derive from the original fight-flight-freeze response that was needed by our ancestors. "Panic attacks are basically just a false alarm from our fight-flight-freeze response. When there’s nothing dangerous to react to, this can lead to a panic attack."
Yeah... I hear you. I've said it myself. Thank you Father. <Sigh>
But, one thing that this website doesn't mention... is if you also have PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder), a panic attack can also trigger your PTSD, and this now becomes a complex situation to navigate. And this my friends... is part of what I was having to deal with during the first full week of January 2022.
The second week was better. I thought that I was finally over being sick, and was starting to take hold of 2022. I had a lot of decision making meetings at work, had my meal plan done for home and was actually cooking at home more. And - I had gotten to my ultimate 14 lbs lost!!
So we were on our way!!
Or... so I thought.
Thursday the 13th - on my way home from work... I started to get a congested head, and suddenly had the cough that just would NOT quit. I couldn't catch my breath, an had to pull over to the side of the road.
And then - I did something that I'm not proud of. But, I know if you were in my situation... you wouldn't hold it against me. I literally screamed at God the Father. "Are you serious?!?! I can't get sick again!" (I may or may not of had an expletive in there too.)
I know... I know. I'm not proud.
But, God showed me what he could do. He made sure that I had to rest for the next 5 days. Let me tell you. We all joke about how much we wish we could just hang out in bed for 5 days straight.
Just so you know... it's not all what it's cracked up to be. Sick with an upper respiratory and double ear infection (that has re-sparked by vertigo), and stuck in bed is NOT fun.
Finally able to be part of the living again - for 3 days. Only to wake this morning with blood in my urine. I'm not talking about just spotting either. I mean it reminded me of a bad horror movie - and honestly scared me.
After 6 1/2 hours in the ER - including a lot of lab work, and CAT scan. I was sent home with a severe bladder infection. So - more antibiotics for me.
And... pain meds.
I also had my teenage son get a diagnosis of generalized epilepsy. And have tried to help him navigate this diagnosis.
With all of that happening though.... I haven't given up. My eyes are still on the end goal.
Has my meal plan been perfect the past 26 days? (Started on 12-28-21.)
But, that is ok. Because every little step counts. I learned that in this week's suggest read:
(Disclaimer: You can find it here by clicking this link. But, I must also tell you that I am an Amazon Associate, and that as an Amazon Associate I earn from qualifying purchases.)
This book is an easy read. And, Jeff Olson's points in it can be mind-bending if you let it. And - his points work... if you work it.
So... what I'm saying - is DON'T GIVE UP!!